Lincoln Eli

Lincoln, 1 day old



Tomorrow, June 9th, Lincoln will be 1 year old!

It all began when I got pregnant in May of 2008. We were so excited because Micah was 3 and we were REALLY ready to have another child. Unfortunately, I miscarried at 11 weeks. It was devastating. I found out while John was away with Mark on a scout canoeing trip. During that same week, our basement flooded, I shocked myself while attempting to vacuum up the water with the shop vac, and a huge tree limb fell on our suburban breaking the passenger side mirror as well as the antenna. Those other things were nothing, though, compared to losing a child. I had to have a D & C because the baby wouldn't miscarry on it's own.

After consulting with our midwife and also the ob/gyn doctor, we decided to wait a cycle and try again. I got pregnant immediately in September of 2008, with an EDD of June 12, 2009. At about 7 weeks, I began to bleed. I had a sinking feeling in my stomach and knew it was not good. I went to the hospital and had my hcg levels tested. They were pretty high, which was very reassuring. Then, they tested again to see if the levels would drop (indicating a miscarriage) or rise (indicating a growing/developing baby). I went in for the second test and found out the next day that the levels had dropped quite a bit. The nurse was so sweet, but told me the truth: it didn't look good. I was scheduled to have an ultrasound two days later to confirm the bad news.

During this second blood test and results, John was gone again. This time he was hunting. I was in shock. I couldn't reach him by cell phone because he was in the middle of nowhere. I called my mom and she arranged for me to have a priesthood blessing with her home teachers. I went, desparately needing the comfort that can come with such blessings.

Before the blessing was given, I explained that I was having a 2nd miscarriage and that I was seeking comfort. As the blessing was given, I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I was told that the baby would be fine. It would be healthy and strong. I guess I don't have much faith, because after the home teachers left, I said to my mom, "Did they hear what I said? I'm losing this baby! I needed comfort, not false hope!!" I was actually upset. Oh me of little faith!

Two days later at the ultrasound, it was true. He was fine. He had a beating heart. Unfortunately, what most likely happened, is that I miscarried a twin. I don't really think about it much. It is sad, but I am so grateful that Lincoln was healthy and IS healthy. The rest of my pregnancy went without incidence.

Since having Wynter, (labor lasted less than 3 hours), I opt for being induced. I really don't want to have a baby at home or in the car. We planned to have Lincoln induced on June 9th. I went in and had my doses of antibiotic (I have group B strep). Then the midwife came in to check me and to begin the pitocin. I was 6 cm dilated. No need to be induced! Lincoln was to be born on June 9th, induction or no induction. A couple of hours later, he was here!! The darn baby had his hand up on his face, which made it tougher to get him out, but he was healthy and all was well!!

Lincoln is a very sweet-natured boy. I called him my "easy baby", but I now don't think of him that way. He has a very stubborn and determined personality (which he gets from his father, hee hee). Oh boy, he can sure cause trouble. He likes to get into the recycling bin, eat everything (even dead flies in the window sill), squirm and get away when you're trying to get him diapered or dressed, "pet" (more like beat) the cat, step on your face if you're lying on the couch so he can look out the window, pull anything he can reach off of the desk or the table, nearly drown himself in the bathtub because he won't sit still, crawl under the car when we're playing outside, chew on the remote, wrestle with/attack his brothers, and crawl onto the desk from the couch so he can "type" (more like beat) on the keyboard.

I can't imagine my life without him. I love my little Linky Bear! Happy Birthday sweetie!! We love you!!

Lincoln, now